What Doctor Said when I Went for My Physical: Oh Sh*T Anniversary pt.3

In case you missed it, we're in the middle of the Oh Shit Anniversary. It was 11 years ago I was diagnosed with herpes. This is the exact day 11 years ago....

Now it's Tuesday and I know something is wrong. This is the same day as it was eleven years ago. By now the blisters had fully shown up and I was in unbelievable pain. I felt so sick and could not imagine what was going on. Today was supposed to be just a regular physical but instead it turned into the day to go to the doctors and get a resolution.

I had totally mixed emotions about going to the doctors. Part of me was to get some relief and the other part didn't want to be told that I had something bad going on down there. But I was in so much pain it didn't really matter.

I can remember walking into the doctors, well I was walking but it was more of a waddle because I was in soooooo much pain. And I walked in and had to put the ugly blue gown on and sit there. I can remember the nurse asking me questions about my health and yada yada yada but I was so concerned with what was happening down there. When it came to the time when the doctor had to examine the area I was embarrassed, freaking out, in pain and just plain scared. She was down there doing the swabs, the pokes and all the normal stuff for a pap and STI test. I can remember her saying to me that it looks like it's just a really bad yeast infection. And that it didn't really look like herpes. That was refreshing to hear. But all of my symptoms and everything was still pointing to herpes.

The doctor took a swab of the herpes lesions and said that she was going to look at them under the microscope. She as well had me get a blood test done to see if I had the antibodies for herpes. She took a quick look under the microscope and once again said that everything looked fine and that she thinks its just a really bad yeast infection.

I can remember leaving the Scripps Clinic thinking that it might not be herpes but I was still in so much pain that I didn't know what to do.